Realize..

it never really hit me how hard it is for me ta trust a person.. until today! I always find myself doubting a person more than analyzing how they really are. I know exactly why I have trust issues, but I never knew it was this bad! I can’t even trust family member’s walking behind me, I feel like ima get shot or stabbed. I can’t even trust a person that i’ve known for years to hold my wallet, cos I feel like their gunna take off with it. I can’t even trust myself.. I’ve realized how much I’ve changed since my freshmen year, I was never as negative as I am nowadays.. Like I always say “shxt happens” , it’s life, ur suppose to grow up & I guess this is apart of my growth. I’m such a negative person, always thinking 50 steps ahead of everybody thinking of everything that could go wrong & not taking the time of the day to sit back & look at the view, the beautiful sightings, I never make time to just breath the fresh air.. & this would have never happened if I never met you.. I spent 5 years, feeling stupid, because I “thought” i could help you be the person I know you want to be.. but “change” comes within a person, baby! I’m done with you being the reason why I can’t stop to smell the roses.. Ima make me a new begginning.. I’m no longer “in love” with you but ima always have “love” fa’ you.. I guess you burned me & now i’m scarred foreva’..